soo tired of the digs

i am soo tired of everyone and everything at my current location...

i do not fit in there...

i am tired of going to work and feeling like the outcast...

i have always got along with people that i worked with...

everybody is always telling me things and telling me lies, not wanting me to succeed....

i have one guy that is probably fucking the manager at this point...

who always gets recognition and i am so fucking tired of it...who's store really is it?

i dont want to be apart of this store anymore because they are going to take over something that i do not even want to be apart of...

i love my job, i love the money, but i am so tired of everyone else...

i do not want to leave, and i do not understand how i would deserve to leave...because it is not fair...

i want to be the best and i was the best...i am so fed up...

fed up with the forced position that i am in....am i not supposed to be in control?

why can't i be in a position to be on top?

please tell me why i consistently get treated the way that i do...

i am tired of feeling uncomfortable at my own damn job....

so fucking tired of it...

it is time for me to move on and move forward...perhaps as a sales lead somewhere where i deserve to be...

i am so fucking fed up ...i understand that i am seasonal status....but i deserve to be made permanent....i deserve to be on top and get some damn recognition...

finally. finally. finally.

maybe i am acting up...but i think that the future holds something for me...

i begin my final semester at laguardia next week and i will then move forward with my teaching degree....i will become a respectable member of society and hold a damn job and make the moves that i need to become successful...

it is only a matter of time before i become the person i want to be...and that will hold my future...

i look forward...

to the end but until that time...i do not understand what else is in store...

i knew that