superhero.

when did i become consumed into social garbage? when did i care so much about being socially relevant opposed to being intellectually agressive?

you were always meant for great things, because you are great.

it doesn't matter about people, it is what matters about you.

i do not have the patience for other people, and what there specific expectations are. i have the energy and the drive to become unstoppable...

so i have decided on Marketing. idk why people expect me to become a teacher, i think that i am far from capable of achieving dreams...

could you be in the office running events, and sponsoring events...and doing product placements and coming up with campaigns and structures...ummm let's see. yes, yes i can.

i think that it would be so much fun for me to dwell in and i also believe that you tend to get jealous here others talking about public relations and marketing so it seems that it makes sense for you to just do it.

are you ghetto? maybe, but i am not a mess.

i think that marketing makes a bunch of sense, and in this economy go with your gut.
there are so many positive, productive companies that you can work for.

you only have one life to live, i think what is most important to me is makign some form of difference while i am here on this planet, i do not need to be famous for something insignifcant.

however, one day you will be famous. and one day you will be unstoppable.

you are unstoppable now.

it is time to take advanatage of all the opportunities...that are in front of you.

take your courses do not waste your time, and be what you are meant to be

which is influencing the population with the media. hope that this college will intellectually stimulate you, and if so...become greater. and be wiser.

t-mobile is here for now, and it is meant for you throughout your duration.

why must u change ur mind oh so so much.

Marketing seems like a good idea for me, totally responsible and makes sense. not over the top, and can be totally fun fun fun....especially if i major in an advertising field.

i'm hella creative, fun, smart, and awesome....

that's really all that's needed.

it truly is a new beginning...

to all my fans from abroad...thank you for your support.


lol. today was fun, i got me a haircut...kind of fun and about time kind of thing. i enjoy having a short haircut and i think it's time.

it's my 3rd week at my new job, and i have about 3 weeks to go in my classes. waiting for everything to come back down to normal...how does one handle? going to school full time and working almost full time...

it has come down to a point where i believe that 3 days might only be my availability when it comes down to work...i can't afford a part part time job but it may just have to be that way in order for me to feeel normal.

i recently got accepted into York college, and i am wondering what i should do with that. should i go for an accounting degree in order to make a considerable amount of money and shine shine shine...

or should i pursue other fields of interest? i sometimes wonder if my destiny is to be a teacher but i feel that passion can be pursued later in life...at least on a career/academic level.

in the moment now, i think that it is imperative to execute what i need to get done...which includes getting a Bachelor's degree and moving forward with my life financially...

propreuner + 1 year at the hip hop conservatory.

car + place.

LIFE.

hmm. idk if i know...

idk what would make me happier. i feel like i am content. i have grown to be content. i feel strong and i feel that my lack of emotion persuades me to induce a positive shell. although, i do not know if i am strong enough to be okay...i know that i am capable and i have a lot of alterior methods of coping, which do not involve drugs. but i insist on some form of addictive side reality that i engage with in order to pass the time. what does that mean?

i know what i am capable of, and i know that i need to be stronger and not be the jerk asshole that i have been for some time...what should i do with my life? the real question consistently involves your own inner happiness and how that can be translated into a positive work ethic that provides you with a virture.

the virtue of work. never put down hard work at any cost. but in my time now, i have found a job that involves making money for minimal physical effort. although i do not have the physical arena addressed consistently, i do possess the effort...hardly. it is hard to get up and go to work and then go to the gym, and avoid all of the devious temptations that this world has to offer.

what i need to do and focus on is remaining successful, and i have to focus on what is the proper channels in order to maintain a steady focus and create success for myself...and whatever i choose to do that with...

i have definitely finished my transition in many ways, and surpassed what i thought what i would be. my sweet nature still generates a positive outlook that is admired, and attractive.

what i need to do now is focus on inner strength and combining a focus in order to make a positive move in my life. what that is...well i do not know. i figure that i want to be successful with some form of acting and creativity. because i am creative enough to make new ideas relevant and create possibilites that are translatable.

but i hate science. i do not know.

my relevance needs to be served, and i need to create an environment where to execute this. some from of dexter...dexter's are always smart for some reason. i do not know why.

naturally

of course on my day off, i have to go deal with mother's day...

personally i would have liked to have been left alone...

i love my mom so i did it for her, but what a fucking pain in the ass...why does my fucking card get ran twice? why the fuck do we get treated like we are some assholes...cuz guess what we are not...

i was about to cause a fucking scene...idk what to do anymore honestly it is such a fucking pain and so fucking annoying...

i am so over it. i fucking hated that place, hated the environment...and do not want to have gone there when for half the price...could have had something way better....i'm so fucking over it.

so fucking over it.

well this is where it starts, i guess. people think that you are an asshole or something...and feel that they have the right to charge your account twice. dude you must be out of your fucking mind!

tomorrow i will call...and hopefully everything will get taken care of.

i will make sure that everything works out.