and i'm leaving....

put so much energy on the next and the future, and what i was doing was wasting my energy not focusing on what was engaging me at the time, whether it was good or bad...

everytime the time came to pull the trigger, i backed away and was left withno time to heal but pushed forward to a new moment in order to not step back into previous paths...

the labyrinth that engages you is the pattern to indulge you as you move forward with no regards to previous book keeping...

always allow yourself to be in possession of the truth and always allow yourself to create
the ability to create is lost on lost souls, but that does not lead into a form of personal destruction

it is important to have a balance, but it is important to have a voice, lead yourself to be chosen, dont elect yourself a leader....

do not be a supporting character.

allow yourself the ability to be on the main stage and greet yourself to a whole new meaning of certainty...

what is behind you is behind you...and you begin to acknowledge what these secrets you held within yourself actually mean to others...

i have finally discovered the route to all of this, i was not afraid of anything other then falling into the same trap that my predecessors have fled to...therefore through acknowledgement it has become clear that everyone has a voice...

you were a kid, you are definitely not at that age anymore, but it was with the sincerest quality that you will continue to lead and be the best that you can be, get over this gray period, work your ass off....get the tangibles that you deserve! and make moves...move forward and enjoy

but you have to get your act together!

1. schedule dentist and doctors appointment immediately before insurance runs out!
a. sign up for t-mobile insurance in april.
b. get all cavities filled and take care of everything
c. schedule appt. with dermatologist and make sure you are healthy.

2. Proactiv
a. set up routine facials...
b. clear the mother fucking skin biotch i said right now...

3. Debts
a. pay off shakespeare A.S.A.P.
b. pay off TD bank
c. pay off library
d. evaluate if you owe any other money elsewhere but probably not

4. Room
a. save up money to buy:
mirror, yoga mat, mural, espionage kit, sheets, towels, curtains,

5. Wardrobe
a. no new clothes until you lose weight...
b. SOCKS. TANKTOPS. BOXERS. $100...I ALLOW IT.

6. LAUNDRY!!!
must go through all clothes and decide if i am keeping anything or not, must decide...major must do before final semester starts!

7. vacation time immediately...
MUST PLAN VACATION SOON.

8. GYM?
a. sign up to powerhouse...do it, maybe as a graduation present!
b. remember to CANCEL planet fitness...

9. luxuries
a. new ipod...say what.
b. blackberry? oooh maybe as a graduation/birthday present.

10. apply for readmission to HUNTER asap.

11. get kept at t-mobile!!!

2000, 1500,