so weirded out

everyday i find a way to make myself feel like shit.

every moment i find a way to feel uncomfortable.

all the time i feel like a stranger in my own head.

i need help.

i think i might need to seek professional help.

i feel like my wrists have handcuffs on them.

i feel like my heart is skipping a beat.

i feel like i get tired.

i feel like this is nonsense.

i feel like i have become nonsensical.

i feel like i have no friends.

i know i have no friends.

i have no friends.

i am lonely, i constantly remind myself of the altercation that took place, i am free, free from it...based on what i needed in order to feel better about myself...

he did not want to allow me to feel good at all, i guess he never wanted me to feel good...what he didn't realize was that what would fuel me...

enter into the darkness you find a certain path, a path that leads to humor, no self doubt, no nothing...you are trapped in the box.

the box that provides you with the creative energy needed to explore other avenues of entertainment.

you are nothing. yet, i continuously write about you. all of you.

you tortured me, you made me look like a fool, you embarassed me.

you are horrible. you are weak. you are lame. you are useless.

you are single. you are sick. you have vertigo.

you have no place to dwell. you have nothing.

you have no idea who i am. and you have no idea what i am capable of.

you have no idea what lends its hand towards.

i am what i am. you are what you are.

surprise suckers. you didn't take anything. i gave you the mirage...

that is my best kept secret.