I chose to write a blog in order to express the constant thoughts that possess my focus--where has all the attention gone? People assume that this sort of style of thinking is a casual side effect of attention deficit disorder...I agree.
In reality what i really want to talk about is what the fuck pisses me off....what the hell is there left to do in new york city? other than drink yourself to a drunken stuper where a casual illusion can be considered a fun exciting night...boooooooo fucking lame...is what is...
I have not had a fun night in new york city in the longest time...you go to a bar, you sit down, you ingest alcohol that slowly mutiliates your blood cells and subsequently violates your blood stream in order to behave in a weakened state of being....what am i saying? i do love drinking.
Shouldn't drinking lead to some sort of elevated thought process....a creative discovery...anything worthwhile...perhaps something that resembles...some noble character? Or does everyone just engage in drunk deboccery and pretend that this is life? is it really?
is that all that it is...even a casual hangout...isn't so casual? casual leads to boredom and boredom leads to helplessness...are you the chosen one? led to lead people into a promising thought that will eventually blossom into timeless moments...
or are you the one engaged beyond your own control in order to satisfy some hunger to feel adequate...some underlying quality inhibits the truth that at one point possessed you...you become lost in your own consciousness...how can you live with a filter? a filter made up of a series of manifested thought processes that have no control over one another...for they are co dependent.....
your relation to your experiences have led you to grow accostomed to your own pre existing qualities...only a rebel can rebel against himself...he can see the situational basis for everything surrounding him...the epicenter of conflict...and the emotional attachment that governs the encounter...
people can make you laugh and people can be a support system...but there are certain people that will never fulfill the same quality or challenge the truth out of everyone...there is no light in intellectuals...because intellectuals are not bright. brightness is an inherent component of the mentality...you can be smart but your mentality is deficient...
your mentatlity breeds no complex thinking...yet you continuously criticize the thoughts of others....there is nothing critical about criticizing...one after the other each man fell in his attempts to prevent me....however it took a group of 6 to bring me down...and the only thing that challenged me was the emotional consequences of my actions...and now i deal with this torture of a terrible thought processs....
screaming telling myself to stop thinking about a silly experience that perhaps challenged me to no wit's end...i would never allow myself to be taken advantage of yet i chose to go through the process of torture in order to make myself stronger or perhaps engage myself in some way that would alter my thought process ....however the experience didn't change me...it just dissapointed me...it was not as if the people were not worthy however the situation was not palpable...it has become a trivialized action....
the intention was present in order to make myself stronger and thus has garnered me into thinking on a whole new level...a more adult level...that is highly more passionate and engaging with society, politics, and discovery....allowing myself to be fullfilled within a social institution in order to grace the world with my presence....taking on a random slighly hipster society has elevated my thought process in being able to embrace the exchange....
should everyone care about this....? no. but who the fuck cares at this point...at this point...we should...just all engage in ourselves to develop a greater being...human mind is stronger than any weapon....and the weapon is stronger when engaged.
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